I shared the inspiration for last year's resolution yesterday. I love New Years resolutions. I think it's a great excuse to set goals for yourself. Even if you don't accomplish them, it's great to get in the habit of trying to improve yourself. I think being self aware is one of the most important qualities a person can possess.
Anywho, last year my resolution was to become more FEARLESS. I knew that I wouldn't be able to become completely fearless (and I'm not sure being completely fearless is a good thing), but I thought that trying to overcome some of my fears would be a good thing.
I think I did a pretty good job with my resolution. I overcame a lot of fears this year, and in a large part that is all because of my husband. If Michael hadn't joined the Air Force and left for six months, I wouldn't have been forced to become more independent.
I was FEARLESS when I drove cross-country by myself, with a two year old, multiple times. I've never driven more than three hours away from home by myself before. I was always afraid of traffic and getting lost. In the past year, I've driven over a hundred hours in long-distant trips all by myself. Now that I have a GPS, the fear of getting lost is completely non-existent. And it's amazing how easy it is to get past your fears when you have no choice but to overcome them. Now that I've driven in Dallas, I feel I can drive anywhere. That crap was scary!
I was FEARLESS when I was a single parent for six months. I had a lot of help from my awesome parents, but still. I didn't have Michael to take over when the day was too long. I didn't have anyone to help make important parenting decisions and choices. I think every single military spouse is fearless because being a temporary single parent is just plain hard. Bouncing between duel parenting to single parenting back to duel parenting takes its toll on everyone. But I think I accomplished it fearlessly.
I was FEARLESS when Michael started working Mid-shift (third shift), and I was left alone every night. If you know me, you know this is a big deal. I usually can't sleep without another adult in the house. I just feel vulnerable, and my nerves completely take over. It was great practice for when Michael deploys, and I am so proud that I fearlessly went to sleep every night with only one light on in the house.
I'm glad this is one New Year's Resolution that I stuck to. I didn't overcome all my fears, but I didn't expect to. I'm just proud that I was able to become more fearless in my life. I'm more independent, and I'm more willing to take chances.
Come back tomorrow to read this year's resolutions. Have a happy and safe last day of the year!