Taking Back My Body

This has been a really crappy year for me health-wise.  Last fall I was diagnosed with a heart condition, Mitral Valve Prolapse Syndrome.  Then my migraines flared up, and lasted every single day for a month.  And then my miscarriage last month.

I feel like I don't have control over my own body anymore.  It does what it wants, when it wants, regardless of my wants.  And I'm sick and tired of it.

So I'm taking it back.  My body that is.  I'm taking back the reins of my health and my body.  I'm losing this baby fat (can I still call it that three years later?) once and for all. I want to shed this weight and get in shape for my heart and for my future baby.  When the time comes to try again, I want to give my baby the best body to thrive in that I am capable of.

A lot of military wives make goals for themselves while their husbands are deployed, and I think this is the best opportunity I am going to have to focus on this.  I have my motivations, and I have my deadline (his redeployment date). 

And I have P90x.

Yeah, I think I might be a little crazy for trying this.  It's a pretty intense workout, and I'm not really in shape.  At. All.  But I need something that pushes you and is proven to work.  I need structure.  I may not be able to accomplish all the workouts right away, but I am going to try.  Hard.  Because I want this so bad. 

And that's really the reason I'm writing this. I want to achieve my goals so badly.  In the past, I've tried to start an exercise regime only to let life get in the way.  With P90x, I have structure which should help me tremendously.  But now I also have you. 

I'm going to write an update weekly to help hold me accountable. Please help keep me motivated!  Now that my aspirations are out there in the blogsphere, I can't just stop working towards my goals.  The whole world would know of my failure then.  I hate to fail so that should be a great motivator too.  :)

I start P90x today.  Wish me luck!